Glenn, Thank you so much. It is sooo important to me that I remind myself constantly that this *isn't* a magic pill, won't be fun and easy, and is a last chance effort to getting my life back. Your sharing has touched me the most. It reminds me again, why I am doing this, what I hope to achieve by doing it, and what I am willing to sacrifice to get there. I am so at peace with my decision it is amazing, and I have people like you to thank for it. So thank you again for keeping it real.
— Megan

Through Thick and Thin #3 (August 5, 2002)

Jumping Through The Hoops to Gastric Bypass Surgery

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At long last. Hope!

For the first time in 45 years, I‘m truly believing that, through the miracle of this bariatric medical intervention, I can achieve a healthful weight and physical state. Although I have come to feel hopeless about resolving my morbid obesity through careful eating and exercise, I no longer feel helpless.

I‘ve come to realize that I have a medical condition that requires a medical intervention. That my obesity is not an issue of my character, intelligence or competence. There‘s no shame in that realization. For the first time, I feel hope.

Research indicates that only 5% of dieters are successful, i.e. they lose their weight and maintain the weight loss. Research shows that 85% of individuals who have some form of gastric bypass surgery lose at least 40% of their excess weight — and keep it off. Hopeless, but not helpless.

I remember reading about the procedure years ago, and fantasizing about it — much like I have fantasized about the discovery of the magic pill that will melt away my unwanted extra pounds, or that will speed up my metabolic rate, or that will otherwise solve my weight problem for me. But I‘ve had a very negative and painful experience with “elective surgery”, and something that involved stapling my stomach seemed unacceptably bizarre and still too experimental to consider.

This time, however, when I read the June 10th Newsweek article about the gastric bypass procedure, it seemed that the surgery was now a relatively safe and proven-successful intervention. So I surfed the web and checked out the websites of the American Society for Bariatric Surgery; Web MD; the Obesity Surgery Journal; the Center for Disease Control; and other similar sites, including several hosted by ecstatic survivors of the procedure. I voraciously gathered and devoured the voluminous information about the surgery at these sites. And the more I learned, the more interested and hopeful I became.

In 1991, the National Institutes of Health endorsed the procedure as efficacious. Death rates from the surgery remained at a relatively modest rate of about 1.5%, and the rate of surgical complications seemed to be within reasonable range. Patients who had the procedure lost the weight in rapid and dramatic fashion, and kept it off. Often, their diabetes, sleep apnea and other “co-morbid” conditions disappeared or ameliorated. So, after discussions with my wife, I decided it was time for us to have a frank “heart-to-heart” discussion with our family physician. I let him know, when I made the appointment, what I wanted to discuss so that he could be as prepared as possible.

I told him at the outset that we wanted straight talk and answers, complete candor and honesty. How did he assess and compare the risks of this procedure to the potential benefits? He delivered. He told us that the risks were minimal, and the potential benefits enormous. My morbid obesity would kill me prematurely, one way or another. And, along the way, the extra weight I‘m carrying around would continue taking a terrible toll on me in terms of the daily pain and wear and tear on my muscles and tendons and joints. Taking off the excess weight would probably prolong my life significantly, and prevent a great deal of the painful episodes and conditions. It might even “cure” my diabetes and sleep apnea. From his perspective, the surgery made great sense. After further discussion, we agreed, and chose a highly-trained and experienced bariatric surgeon in Seattle who has performed about 1300 gastric bypass procedures.

I called to request an initial consultation. At first I was surprised and disappointed, and then eventually quite pleased, when his receptionist advised me that the doctor preferred to invite me and my wife to a free orientation and question-and-answer session held monthly at his hospital of choice in Seattle.

Within the first minutes of the orientation, I was almost ready to give up and leave. It became clear immediately that this procedure would not be covered by my medical insurance plan. Fees for the primary surgeon and his assistant surgeon would run about $7,500, and the costs of hospitalization for the 3–4 days required could bring the total cost as high as $30,000. Even if we had this kind of money available, how could I ever justify spending so much on this elective procedure?

Actually, it was pretty easy, once my wife and I had a chance to process the information and talk it through. We had received an inheritance after the death of my parents that was sufficient to pay off all of our consumer debts and the mortgage on our home. This was stunning and incredible gift that brought us an enormous sense of peace, security and optimism about our future. And yet what were we saving it for, if I was going to die prematurely? What greater or wiser investment could we possibly make than in my health and prolonged life?

I have a man of many talents and gifts, and I‘ve never had more exciting creative projects on my desk than now. We quickly decided that there was nothing more important for us to have than a chance at many, many more years together.

As it turns out, an abdominal ultrasound required by the surgeon as a precondition to the procedure revealed the presence of one or more stones in my gall bladder. Its removal is a “medically necessary” procedure covered by my health plan. So a portion of the surgery and the hospitalization costs will end up being covered by my insurance. And we would have proceeded with the surgery in any event.

The surgeon also insists upon a slow and careful process leading up to the procedure, including the abdominal ultrasound; a psychological evaluation to assure appropriateness for the procedure and the emotional resources to deal with its aftermath; a nutritional evaluation; and he may also require a sleep apnea study, pulmonary function test and serum cortisol blood test.

I‘ve begun, slowly and carefully, to share my decision and plans with a few family and friends — my daughter; my aunt and uncle (who are my surrogate parents since the death of my own); my sister and brother; a cousin; and a few special friends and colleagues. Their response has been heartening — after an initial shock and concern about the risks inherent in the surgery, total support for anything that will help me to live longer and healthier.

I don‘t have many fears about the surgery itself. I have lots of questions about the mechanics of living and eating with a stomach pouch the size of my thumb. Fortunately, I‘m in touch with a few people who have successfully undergone the surgery and are now celebrating its successful outcomes, and I plan to question them until all of my questions are answered and my anxieties addressed.

Also, I was fortunate to find a book called Living A Lighter Lifestyle, A Guide To Successful Weight Loss and Maintenance Following Gastroplasty or Gastric Bypass, by Dr. Gaye Andrews (http://www.drgaye.com/ ) addressing these issues. The first part describes the surgical procedures and how they work; the second part discusses lifestyle changes that patients must make in order to live comfortably with the procedure and to maximize weight loss; the final part shares the experiences of others who have undergone the surgery. Occasionally I consider the possibility of dying during or from the procedure. More often, I‘m struggling to imagine what I will look like, what I will feel like, as the excess weight comes off and I become more and more comfortable and flexible and healthful within my body. What will it feel like to be able to move and bend and twist normally again, without constraint or limitation? To look normal? To travel normally? To live without the daily pain?

I‘m becoming increasingly excited about the Zen of Gastric Surgery. Less will be more. Less food will make my stomach feel more full. Food will become a fuel, to be carefully and consistently administered in small, periodic doses. It will no longer be a raging obsession, an enemy, an invader, a killer.

This last weekend, as I enjoyed a regional jazz festival, I noticed a young musician who reminded me of myself as a young man. He was strutting around, resplendent in a tight-fitting black silk shirt, black silk pants, and a handsome black blazer. Just for a moment, I saw a glimpse of my future. And it felt so delightfully, joyfully, deliciously good! At long last, hope!

Glenn

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